I knew what I wanted long before I came [into the monastic Self-Realization Order]. I did not come for honor, nor for pleasure, nor for favor. I came for God. Some things surprised and disappointed me, but I moved on, from point to point, until I had the full vision of the guru-disciple relationship. I saw that if the Master had [not disciplined me and instead had] treated me with what is called "kindness" I would never have known myself nor my spiritual needs.
--Sr/ Gyanamata, God Alone: The Life and Letters of a Saint